emphasizing friendship..

'YOU LAUGH AND THE WORLD LAUGHS WITH YOU, YOU CRY AND YOU CRY ALONE'

I guess each and everyone of us has come across this proverb some or the other time. And thou this proverb stands true to the most of the people you get acquainted with but somehow it also stands true for your friends. I am quite sure not every one will agree with my debate, but yet the case rest, just for instance: when you are sharing an anecdote and or a joke most of the friends around you are all ears to whatever you say, aren't they? Try sharing your problems the same way and see how many of them actually pay attention to what you say. There may be people who pay attention but in the end they can't help because of their own reasons. 

My main aim in stating the above point was basically to point out that whats the basic aim of emphasizing the relationship called 'friendship' in the end when we need some serious help there will always be family members who will support us till the end, then why do we give so much emphasis to friendship...?  

And so it came to be
this isolation that I am in
I can only look to me
to find the way it all had to begin -
this confusion, constant
hunger for something more than this
I strive to find this being
that I envision, yet seem to miss.
Could it be that I am empty-
or maybe a little lost?
Could it be that I am lonely,
or seek happiness at any cost?
This never-ending Something
that I am living deep inside,
depicts the illusion of myself
and all I have to hide.

REASONS!!

Do you know?
The reason of our smile,
Do you know?
Why friends share a special place in our mind,
Do you know?
What makes some one special?
Life is so complex,
Coz not everything has a reason.

How hard it is to hurt some one?
And how some just enjoy it.
Ho hard it is to apologies,
And how some just ignore it.


Why cant life be simple?
And everything happen for a cause,
Where every feeling is accountable,
And people are without flaws.

HOW IT FEELS!!

So I want to type this up now so that I don’t forget what this feels like. I feel like I cannot control my thoughts. I feel tired and yet hopeless at the same time. I would do anything to change my mood, even medication when otherwise I would never consider medication. I feel really unfocused, like I can’t keep my mind off of something about myself. I feel self-depleting. Can’t study. I am also not hungry and yet my body feels the need to eat.
I know that my thoughts are really irrational. They have permanence and the feeling like this always happens and I’m not sure how to get out of it. But just realizing that these thoughts will go away makes me feel better and realizing that most of the time I do not feel this way. Just now. It will pass and I will get better.
It feels good to get it out and maybe I just need to go to bed to let it pass. I’ll feel better in the morning. It’s just sometimes I feel left out of my friends. They like others instead of me. It makes me feel lonely. I know they care for me though. I just believe that they think I’m boring.
You need to stop feeling sorry for yourself and stop thinking about yourself.
Life is good. Trust yourself. Love yourself. Life is good.